So, as I'm sure most of you know I've recently applied to grad school, particularly to BYU and Wright State. Now before you get all excited, know that I haven't heard back yet about being accepted or rejected. I have however received an email from Wright State telling me that a Dr. Ream of the Physiology/Neuroscience department wants to interview me sometime next week. For some reason that's all it took to get me to start freaking out. I mean, I've known that I might get rejected from both schools and that my life could take a turn into the great unknown. But I don't think I gave much thought to what would happen if I actually got accepted. You probably think that's ridiculous, but it's true. I put most of my energy into preparing myself for the worst and not thinking about what would happen if the worst didn't happen. Now, I don't mean to say that I already anticipated being rejected from both schools; I was hoping to get accepted. But I admit I've really been wanting to go to BYU. When I first was looking into grad school I wasn't really looking too seriously into BYU. I figured I had done that and now I'd go somewhere else. But this past semester I've been able to take anatomy up at BYU and I had forgotten how much I love it there. Yes, it's hard and I get stressed and worried, but I'm pretty sure I'd get that way no matter where I went to school. I just really love the feeling I get on campus, and fortunately for me I've had some really amazing professors. I've known a lot of people at BYU who don't particulary care for it there just because they haven't had the greatest professors. But I think I lucked out there. The professors in my area of interest tried to get us to think for ourselves and apply what we've learned in new situations and contexts. Obviously my experience wasn't all peaches and cream, but I'd still have to say it was pretty good.
So having said that about BYU, you know I've also applied to Wright State. Now, the benefits of going there would be an opportunity to return to the Ohio. That's where most of my family is. I would love to wake up and look out the window to see trees again rather than mountains. Don't get me wrong, the mountains are cool and everything, but I've gotten used to them. They don't really "do it" for me. My favorite places to walk around out here are usually by the temple and campus, where they actually have more trees and flowers. I miss seeing forests. And I would have more support there during football season...
So let's break it down...I'm gonna lists the pros and cons for both the possibility of going to either school.
BYU: Pros-environment, friends, professors. Cons- Utah, no family
Wright State: Pros- family, Ohio. Cons- no friends, have to start over
Let's talk about those cons for Wright State... that's the main purpose for this blog; so I can get my worries off my chest. Having to start my life over isn't necessarily a con persay, but it's definitely a difficulty. That's what scares me the most. Going to BYU would be comfortable; I know my way around, I know how things works, and I know a lot of people/friends. If I were to go to Wright State, I'd have to start from scratch. Yeah a lot of my friends from high school are still in Ohio, but people change a lot in 7 years. And I have no idea what the singles wards are like there. Frankly, it worries me a little. If I were to go to Ohio State I'd be a little less worried just because I think there are more members up in Columbus since the temple's there (oh... that's another + about BYU; the temple is just 5 minutes away). Who knows.
I know everything will works out the way it's supposed to, whether I go to BYU, Wright State, or if I get rejected by both and get thrown in limbo (again...). I just need to remember that what I think I may want isn't always necessarily what's best for me in the long run. That's not an easy thing to accept. As usual, I'm gonna end my blog with some pertinent quotes.
The most important thing is God's blessing and if you believe in God and you believe in yourself, you have nothing to worry about.
~Mohamed Al-Fayed
Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday.
~Author Unknown
And if you then go and do what He would have you do, your power to trust Him will grow, and in time you will be overwhelmed with gratitude to find that He has come to trust you.
~President Henry B. Eyring
It isn't as bad as you sometimes think it is. It all works out. Don't worry. I say that to myself every morning. It all works out in the end. Put your trust in God, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future.
~President Gordon B. Hinckley
Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things, because we’re curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.
~Walt Disney
A person should set his goals as early as he can and devote all his energy and talent to getting there. With enough effort, he may achieve it. Or he may find something that is even more rewarding. But in the end, no matter what the outcome, he will know he has been alive.
~Walt Disney
Thursday, April 21, 2011
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